God Bless The Broken Road

Today is a great day! Many of my life experiences have involved me getting really hurt, heartbroken, crushed and devastated by many of life's ups and downs.  It's hard for me to say that I have had a hard life, because with everything that I have gone through, I feel as though it hasn't been as hard as most people's life experiences.  I mean in all honesty, I don't come from a background where life was ever extremely difficult to live.  The one thing that I have come to understand and realize in my early twenties, is that life is really as hard as you make it.  When work sucks, and your boss is being an asshole or a bitch (whatever you choose), brush it off as much as you can, because why let other people's attitudes towards you bring you down?  For the majority of my life, I have let the thoughts of others affect me personally and mentally.  Each time someone said something negative to me, whether it be about myself, my relationships, my family, my personality (the list can go on and on), I would always dwell in those moments and let it bug me to death.  It was not until recently that I began to say to myself that everyone else in the world, who is not personally a part of your life, should never matter enough to make you question yourself or the ones that matter most in your life.  Today is a great day! I have finally realized that most of our lives are spent worrying too much, thinking too much, stressing out way more than we ever should, doubting ourselves and wondering where our lives will lead us. When we stop doing that....life becomes this everyday adventure that makes everything we have ever been through worth every penny.  Today is the best day....not only am I leaving the first place I shared with my boyfriend and all my negative days and crazy days in our old place, but we are now embarking on a new adventure, in a new house, with new memories and journeys and I cannot wait to experience.  I must admit, when we moved in together five months ago, I was both extremely excited and nervously scared.  Excited for all of the obvious reasons, like seeing each other every day and getting closer.  Waking up next to him and falling asleep next to him every day and night.  And I was scared because I felt like a real adult for the first time and all of the normal thoughts that many think of, like "this will make or break you," and what if we annoy each other or get bored with each other, ran through my head.  And then I stopped listening to everything everyone told me and payed attention to what my heart and myself were telling me.  In every relationship, we come to understand quickly that no one is perfect, there will be times when you get under each others skin and having personal space is healthy. I am really blessed to have such a wonderful man who gets me and loves me for all that I am and all that I am not.  And I am really blessed to love a man such as he, a man like none other I've ever met in my life and a man who knows me in and out and who I know in and out.  Today is the best day, because a life worth living is one that is never as hard as we try to make it.  I look forward to the new journeys in my life, in our new home, with the same man I feel like I was meant to love.  Every down, every tear and heartbreak, has all been worth it because of him and I take a deep breathe in, knowing that when I close my eyes tonight...all is right in my world. I smile, I pray, I love, and look forward to tomorrow, so I can do it all again.

God really has blessed my broken road...and I thank him every chance I get.