Beautiful Life

When we wake up in the morning what do we usually think of first?  Do we think about work and how much we are dreading going there so early in the morning?  Or do we look over at the one we love and think, 'Damn, I'm lucky!!"?  In all my life, I have never been as comfortable, happy, in love or as content as I am right now.  Sometimes it is easy for me to forget how blessed and lucky I am.  I let too many things, usually the littlest, most irrelevant things, sneak under my skin, straight into my mind and rest there for a while.  I have come to realize that I have wasted a lot of my precious time on Earth, doing just that.  However, I find that I am becoming the woman I always believed in, the woman I always knew I'd get to someday.  And I really do love the woman I am today.  Life is beautiful isn't it?  If I could wish for a few things in life, here are the few things I'd wish for:

• A healthy family
• Strength and courage
• The power to let go..fall...forever
• To marry the man I love
• To get published
• And...to inspire people

Laying in bed in my new home, with my guy and dog laying next to me...I look over and know that God has blessed me.  I've been through a lot of struggles in life, whether I put them on myself or people put them on me.  I used to believe that all of that happened because I wasn't worth it..or that I simply didn't deserve any good.  And I guess when I was younger and  more naive, I truly believed that with all of my heart.  As I lay here writing my little heart I away, I now know that all I've experienced led me to exactly where I am right now, in this very moment.  I look over and take a deep breath in...God life is good. To be able to say that and really believe it, is one of the best feelings imaginable.  On another note, I am finally going to submit my first ever story to Glamour magazine.  For the past four years I have been trying to write "My Great Life Story,"but I was always too afraid to send it off.  Now, four years and three drafts later..I will submit my life story to Glamour in hopes of getting it published.  Whether I do or not, I will finally be able to say that I sent it off. I am happy.  I am at peace. I am in love.  I am happy. I am me..and I love it all.  To everyone who has everyone given up hope once, twice or too many times to count....here's proof that sometimes all you've ever wanted is worth all you never wanted.
"In order to have great happiness you must have to have great pain and unhappiness-otherwise how would you know when you're happy?"-Leslie Caron