Resolutions...
Last December I made a pact to myself. I promised myself that I would make all the necessary changes I needed and wanted to make, to better my life, my mind, my body, and the things that are most important to me.
With only three and a half months left of 2013, my pact is getting closer to the end. I've done an okay job with sticking to my pact, even when weeks or days went by when I had forgotten all about what I had promised myself the year before. As the days draw nearer to the end of the year, my determination is thriving. And there is only one thing I am focusing on; living the life I WANT to live.
Although one would look at me from the outside and think that I have the perfect life, that is so far from the truth. I DO have a wonderful life, don't get me wrong. I have honestly, the most fantastic boyfriend any girl could ever dream of having. I have a close, fantastic bond with my family, and although we live thousands of miles away from one another, that bond ties us together even more.
Yet, I woke up one day last December and I knew that there was something missing. I couldn't pin point it or come up with it right then and there, but after a couple of hours, I figured out what the missing piece was; myself.
All my life I had gone through my journey focusing on the past and the future, many times at the same time, trying too hard to make others happy, not fully accepting who I was, and forgetting about what made me, me.
I think so many people in this world go through this in some form or the other and for me, though it wasn't extreme, it did cause a tremendous amount of resentment and guilt to build up inside my soul.
And that was enough to jolt me and make me reconsider all the bad habits that I was feeding, that were doing nothing great for my inner self.
After just completing Gretchen Rubin's, The Happiness Project, I started my own resolutions chart to focus on. As a person who loves planning and organizing, having this chart helps me to focus on what is most important, little by little, one day at a time.
My resolutions are not my goals. My resolutions are something that I hope to live by for the rest of my life and something that I'm not achieving to reach and then forget about. They are something that convey everything I love about my life and everything that I have hard times dealing with, like being uncomfortable in awkward situations, stress, anxiety, being negative, thinking too much, worrying too much, and not always living in the present moment.
There comes a time in everyones life where they have to look at who they are and determine if they are satisfied with that. With me, I only want to better what I feed my soul, so that I can look back on my life years down the road, and be completely at peace with who I am.
I think that is how it should always be. I'm excited for this journey. I'm excited to better myself. And I am in no way shape or form, trying to change me. All I am doing, is being who I am and who I have always been, at the core.
Life is way too precious. And mine sure is. To resolutions and nothing but growth. I am not afraid, only excited. Loving all I have today, always.
With only three and a half months left of 2013, my pact is getting closer to the end. I've done an okay job with sticking to my pact, even when weeks or days went by when I had forgotten all about what I had promised myself the year before. As the days draw nearer to the end of the year, my determination is thriving. And there is only one thing I am focusing on; living the life I WANT to live.
Although one would look at me from the outside and think that I have the perfect life, that is so far from the truth. I DO have a wonderful life, don't get me wrong. I have honestly, the most fantastic boyfriend any girl could ever dream of having. I have a close, fantastic bond with my family, and although we live thousands of miles away from one another, that bond ties us together even more.
Yet, I woke up one day last December and I knew that there was something missing. I couldn't pin point it or come up with it right then and there, but after a couple of hours, I figured out what the missing piece was; myself.
All my life I had gone through my journey focusing on the past and the future, many times at the same time, trying too hard to make others happy, not fully accepting who I was, and forgetting about what made me, me.
I think so many people in this world go through this in some form or the other and for me, though it wasn't extreme, it did cause a tremendous amount of resentment and guilt to build up inside my soul.
And that was enough to jolt me and make me reconsider all the bad habits that I was feeding, that were doing nothing great for my inner self.
After just completing Gretchen Rubin's, The Happiness Project, I started my own resolutions chart to focus on. As a person who loves planning and organizing, having this chart helps me to focus on what is most important, little by little, one day at a time.
My resolutions are not my goals. My resolutions are something that I hope to live by for the rest of my life and something that I'm not achieving to reach and then forget about. They are something that convey everything I love about my life and everything that I have hard times dealing with, like being uncomfortable in awkward situations, stress, anxiety, being negative, thinking too much, worrying too much, and not always living in the present moment.
There comes a time in everyones life where they have to look at who they are and determine if they are satisfied with that. With me, I only want to better what I feed my soul, so that I can look back on my life years down the road, and be completely at peace with who I am.
I think that is how it should always be. I'm excited for this journey. I'm excited to better myself. And I am in no way shape or form, trying to change me. All I am doing, is being who I am and who I have always been, at the core.
Life is way too precious. And mine sure is. To resolutions and nothing but growth. I am not afraid, only excited. Loving all I have today, always.
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