Just Do!
I've learned really hard in the past six years that in order to be the best me possible, I was do what I think I cannot and what scares me the most. I must follow through with what I say I'm going to do, instead of just talking about it and not doing anything to make it happen.
This is my downfall. This is where I stumble more than I would like and this is where it all begins to change for me. I've lived a wonderfully blessed life, filled with lot's of happiness and love, laughter and joy, and many bumps in the road.
But nowadays, as I get older, I am quickly finding out that my life is so much more important than I have ever given it credit. Sometimes I am weak and I don't believe in myself like I should. When that happens, I thankfully and gratefully, have a special person who sees through all of my imperfections and pushes me to be all that I am.
Love has helped me grow and has helped me to let go as well, and even though I am not fully grown, I know I have come a long way because of life and love.
Here is what I am learning and better understanding today:
*If I want to be a writer than I must write, everyday, sometimes all day, to perfect and increase my creative mind. I must put myself out there and be professional, taking every moment that I have as a serious moment and not one where I think I'll fail. I must get out of my comfort zone and show people and the world, that yes, I am a writer, and this is my story.
*If I want to find a job in which I will love going to everyday, no matter if stresses or conflict arise from time to time, than I must actually do that by looking for a job everyday until I find one, never giving up on it just because I get lazy or bored.
*If I want to change my body, mind, and soul, than I must put in all the effort and work it will take to pursue and complete this goal, even when all I want to do is just sleep and be a bum.
*If I want to be more confident within myself, than I must do just that; be confident in spite of the world and believe in myself much more.
*If I want to prove to myself and even those I love that I can conquer anything, than I must do just that.
*If I want to stop worrying and fearing failure and disappointment, loss and uncertainty, than I must do just that; STOP.
*And if I want to love who I love, knowing that there will be moments when things are not always peachy, that differences are good, and that perfection never exists, than I will DO just that as well.
Because I am important, because my life is important, and because for the first time in my life I want to be more selfless, I will do all these things and more because it matters. Because, everything in my life matters and everyone who is in it matters more than I show and more than they will ever know.
Today I am simply thankful to be alive. I don't always have "perfect" days, but I am always happy in it. My biggest thing is that I don't want to get to the end of my life and look back and see how much time I wasted on frivolous things, when I could've and should've been out there living my life.
I think for most people in this world, they don't want that to be the case.
To the one person who shows me more of myself than anyone else I know, even more than I do at times, "I Love You," is just not enough to show you what you mean to me.
I give you all of me and you give me all of you. And that is ENOUGH!
This is my downfall. This is where I stumble more than I would like and this is where it all begins to change for me. I've lived a wonderfully blessed life, filled with lot's of happiness and love, laughter and joy, and many bumps in the road.
But nowadays, as I get older, I am quickly finding out that my life is so much more important than I have ever given it credit. Sometimes I am weak and I don't believe in myself like I should. When that happens, I thankfully and gratefully, have a special person who sees through all of my imperfections and pushes me to be all that I am.
Love has helped me grow and has helped me to let go as well, and even though I am not fully grown, I know I have come a long way because of life and love.
Here is what I am learning and better understanding today:
*If I want to be a writer than I must write, everyday, sometimes all day, to perfect and increase my creative mind. I must put myself out there and be professional, taking every moment that I have as a serious moment and not one where I think I'll fail. I must get out of my comfort zone and show people and the world, that yes, I am a writer, and this is my story.
*If I want to find a job in which I will love going to everyday, no matter if stresses or conflict arise from time to time, than I must actually do that by looking for a job everyday until I find one, never giving up on it just because I get lazy or bored.
*If I want to change my body, mind, and soul, than I must put in all the effort and work it will take to pursue and complete this goal, even when all I want to do is just sleep and be a bum.
*If I want to be more confident within myself, than I must do just that; be confident in spite of the world and believe in myself much more.
*If I want to prove to myself and even those I love that I can conquer anything, than I must do just that.
*If I want to stop worrying and fearing failure and disappointment, loss and uncertainty, than I must do just that; STOP.
*And if I want to love who I love, knowing that there will be moments when things are not always peachy, that differences are good, and that perfection never exists, than I will DO just that as well.
Because I am important, because my life is important, and because for the first time in my life I want to be more selfless, I will do all these things and more because it matters. Because, everything in my life matters and everyone who is in it matters more than I show and more than they will ever know.
Today I am simply thankful to be alive. I don't always have "perfect" days, but I am always happy in it. My biggest thing is that I don't want to get to the end of my life and look back and see how much time I wasted on frivolous things, when I could've and should've been out there living my life.
I think for most people in this world, they don't want that to be the case.
To the one person who shows me more of myself than anyone else I know, even more than I do at times, "I Love You," is just not enough to show you what you mean to me.
I give you all of me and you give me all of you. And that is ENOUGH!
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