The Journey
If it were to all end tomorrow would I have accomplished all the things in my life I hope to fulfill? The answer is simple, no I would say. But would I have loved and lived in a way that I could be proud of? Yes! Without a doubt.
If you asked me a year ago my answers would be different. If you asked me two years ago the answers would be longer. But today as I sit in the comfort of a child's home whom I've come to love and care for in the past year, it all makes sudden sense to me. Why wait?
Too often than not I sit and ponder over too many frivolous things, like will I ever find that one job that makes me happy? Will I stick to my guns and fulfill my dreams? Will I be a mom someday and if that, a great one? A great wife? Will I ever publish that book I've been dying to write? I don't have all the answers to those questions and for that I am grateful. I no longer want to know the answers to all the questions I come up with in my never ending mind. Instead the not knowing, something I've never been entirely comfortable with, is the only way to truly live. Why would anyone want to know all the answers to life's greatest questions? If we did, life wouldn't be the glorious and joyous surprise it so often is.
I've been a nanny to a little boy for almost a year now. I've watched him grow from 11 weeks to a year and one month and in two weeks we will depart ways and say goodbye to each other. One of the greatest and most rewarding things I have ever done in my 26 years of existence, has been caring and loving a child so unconditionally. He doesn't know this now, he's obviously way too young to understand, but he has changed my life. He has made me appreciate love in a way I could've never imagined. And he has made me grow so much as an individual. I am not looking forward to saying goodbye to this little soul, but I am so incredibly excited and happy to continue on my journey of life.
I have learned that I can do anything I set my heart on. I can accomplish any goal and any obstacle, mainly the ones within myself. Today is unlike many days. I woke up with such happiness in my heart and ready to take on the world. I never knew how much I could learn from a child whose love is so immenelsey powerful. Because of him, I have come to appreciate everything that is in my life a million times more.
I'll always be working on me. That's a journey I never want to end. I love me too much to ever give up on me. I love the people in my life too much to ever give up on me as well. They who go unnamed, will never know just how much they have helped to shape my life. I wouldn't change everything I've experienced for this moment. I would do it all again graciously to have what I have now. And I would never look back.
Today, my heart speaks loudly to me in ways I've never fully understood. It tells me in the beats that it's okay to let go. It's okay to take risks. It's okay to be happy always. I follow those words and I feel them. And I know that of all the ubsurd things my mind has made up, that my heart has always been the only thing to never fail me. She has always been on my side, watching out for me, giving me guidance when I lose my way.
When the day ends and I go home, I will walk in with opened arms, grateful to be living in a place that is surrounded by love, honesty and acceptance. For those who have that in life, never ever let it go. No matter how hard life can get, hold on tight. Home truly is where the heart is and every day I pull up in my driveway and make my way inside, I feel all the love that lives inside a home I am proud and lucky to have.
If you asked me a year ago my answers would be different. If you asked me two years ago the answers would be longer. But today as I sit in the comfort of a child's home whom I've come to love and care for in the past year, it all makes sudden sense to me. Why wait?
Too often than not I sit and ponder over too many frivolous things, like will I ever find that one job that makes me happy? Will I stick to my guns and fulfill my dreams? Will I be a mom someday and if that, a great one? A great wife? Will I ever publish that book I've been dying to write? I don't have all the answers to those questions and for that I am grateful. I no longer want to know the answers to all the questions I come up with in my never ending mind. Instead the not knowing, something I've never been entirely comfortable with, is the only way to truly live. Why would anyone want to know all the answers to life's greatest questions? If we did, life wouldn't be the glorious and joyous surprise it so often is.
I've been a nanny to a little boy for almost a year now. I've watched him grow from 11 weeks to a year and one month and in two weeks we will depart ways and say goodbye to each other. One of the greatest and most rewarding things I have ever done in my 26 years of existence, has been caring and loving a child so unconditionally. He doesn't know this now, he's obviously way too young to understand, but he has changed my life. He has made me appreciate love in a way I could've never imagined. And he has made me grow so much as an individual. I am not looking forward to saying goodbye to this little soul, but I am so incredibly excited and happy to continue on my journey of life.
I have learned that I can do anything I set my heart on. I can accomplish any goal and any obstacle, mainly the ones within myself. Today is unlike many days. I woke up with such happiness in my heart and ready to take on the world. I never knew how much I could learn from a child whose love is so immenelsey powerful. Because of him, I have come to appreciate everything that is in my life a million times more.
I'll always be working on me. That's a journey I never want to end. I love me too much to ever give up on me. I love the people in my life too much to ever give up on me as well. They who go unnamed, will never know just how much they have helped to shape my life. I wouldn't change everything I've experienced for this moment. I would do it all again graciously to have what I have now. And I would never look back.
Today, my heart speaks loudly to me in ways I've never fully understood. It tells me in the beats that it's okay to let go. It's okay to take risks. It's okay to be happy always. I follow those words and I feel them. And I know that of all the ubsurd things my mind has made up, that my heart has always been the only thing to never fail me. She has always been on my side, watching out for me, giving me guidance when I lose my way.
When the day ends and I go home, I will walk in with opened arms, grateful to be living in a place that is surrounded by love, honesty and acceptance. For those who have that in life, never ever let it go. No matter how hard life can get, hold on tight. Home truly is where the heart is and every day I pull up in my driveway and make my way inside, I feel all the love that lives inside a home I am proud and lucky to have.
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