Home.

It's been a while since I last wrote and I must admit that I've missed my blog immensely.  What a crazy, busy past few weeks I've had, I'm so happy that I'm finally able to wind down and breathe some.

I find that working myself too much without giving myself any time to just chill out and be still, burns me out quicker than anything else.  And in all honesty, I hate the way it makes me feel-as if my body and my brain are unable to shut down.  In other words, it's exhausting and although I may not have a crazy busy life like others do, it's crazy busy enough for me.

Ah.  Being still is worth everything and then some.  When I'm still, like I am now, everything around me and in my life is more peaceful, beautiful and meaningful.  You know what I mean?  I've really been teaching myself how to keep calm and do whatever I want.  When I start feeding my brain negative thoughts such as, "You can't do that," or "You're not good enough," I can instantly feel the nasty energy sinking into my blood and it's definitely one of the worst feelings in the world.

Nowadays I try to take it easy, something I've been hearing my whole life, and I'm finding out that all those times I've heard those words have been to better my life.  Today I am grateful that I am of course, alive.  I'm grateful to have a wonderful partner, family and friends.  I'm grateful to be at home on this glorious Saturday in Las Vegas, taking it easy to the fullest.  I'm really grateful to be me and be here and be aware, of all the great energy that surrounds me.

I'm at home with where I'm at in my life, and even though I am still learning and growing up every day, I am becoming more and more content and peaceful with my life.  It's not worth it to try so hard at living, when living is actually quite simple when we allow it to be.  It is also not worth trying so hard to please everyone as well, a lesson I've learned all too well.  

The best way to live, in my opinion at least, is to truly learn how to live for yourself first and accept yourself completely.  When you can do that, life becomes easier than you could have ever imagined.  There will still be times when you fall back on old habits and moments when you question things, but the sooner you catch those habits creeping up again, the easier it is to shut them down. 

I've found great happiness in that way of living and it feels so damn good.  My life and the lives of those around me I feel, are better, closer and more calmer, than ever before.  It sure is a  Happy Saturday.

And to my favorite team from back home in Texas....way to go Spurs!!! Way to go!!!