Adios past, hola present!!
With every new year, people all over the world (including me on several occasions), vow to make resolutions that some actually keep, but most actually forget within a few weeks or so. I've done this bit so many times than I can remember, so this new year is not about resolutions for me. Instead, it is about leaving the past where it belongs, behind, and living more fully in the present.
For most of my 27 years, at least 17 of those have been all about me worrying way too much about "bad things," such as death, illness, heartbreak, disappointment, failure, and losing all the good. Just writing all those words down in the context that they truly are, makes me laugh and roll my eyes at the same time. But you know what? I don't hate all the crazy parts of who I am anymore. I actually find them hilarious and uplifting, a detractor from what is real and what is not. And whenever I get too much in my head, it's a reminder that I need to just be cool, calm down, and remember that nothing is ever worth wracking my head over.
This year I don't want to change anything about who I am either. For so long that is all I thought and said I wanted. But the truth is, is that deep down in my core, I am awesome. I am genuine. I am real. I am loving. I am loyal. I am faithful. I am honest. I am funny. And I am me. I know I deserve all that I have in my beautiful life, because of the kind of person I am. It's so easy to get lost in life, to forget about what is truly important, and to forget the real you. So instead I vow to be more of myself, more of the girl I actually really love.
I want to take in the easy silence that surrounds me, the many moments that words do not need to be spoken, and where silence feels more like peaceful harmony that awkward voids. I want to take in the warmth of the sun and feel more grateful that the sun keeps me and all those I love alive, and that without it, we don't exist. I want to dance crazy in front of the mirror more and all over the place. I want to spend more time with the ones I love and not need anything more than their presence and the sounds of their laughter and voices. I want to write more of what I want to write, about my dreams, my hopes, inspirations, and not feel like I have to make room for that. I want to take more time for myself by getting good sleep, bettering my mind and body, eating well, painting, taking up new hobbies, laughing till my tummy aches, being less serious and defensive, watching movies, and not feeling like I "have to do it all."
Last year was beautiful, but it ended already. And although it was filled with many change, there was still beauty in that growth. My guy always says, that to truly leave the past in the past, you have to stop talking about it. Now, more than ever, I find that to be even truer.
A little less talk and a lot more action.
I am so humbly grateful for all that I have. I seriously feel like the luckiest girl every single morning I wake up. And I'm so thankful and grateful to the ones I love, my warriors, the ones who get me, fully, and love me anyway.
To just living and nothing more than that.
For most of my 27 years, at least 17 of those have been all about me worrying way too much about "bad things," such as death, illness, heartbreak, disappointment, failure, and losing all the good. Just writing all those words down in the context that they truly are, makes me laugh and roll my eyes at the same time. But you know what? I don't hate all the crazy parts of who I am anymore. I actually find them hilarious and uplifting, a detractor from what is real and what is not. And whenever I get too much in my head, it's a reminder that I need to just be cool, calm down, and remember that nothing is ever worth wracking my head over.
This year I don't want to change anything about who I am either. For so long that is all I thought and said I wanted. But the truth is, is that deep down in my core, I am awesome. I am genuine. I am real. I am loving. I am loyal. I am faithful. I am honest. I am funny. And I am me. I know I deserve all that I have in my beautiful life, because of the kind of person I am. It's so easy to get lost in life, to forget about what is truly important, and to forget the real you. So instead I vow to be more of myself, more of the girl I actually really love.
I want to take in the easy silence that surrounds me, the many moments that words do not need to be spoken, and where silence feels more like peaceful harmony that awkward voids. I want to take in the warmth of the sun and feel more grateful that the sun keeps me and all those I love alive, and that without it, we don't exist. I want to dance crazy in front of the mirror more and all over the place. I want to spend more time with the ones I love and not need anything more than their presence and the sounds of their laughter and voices. I want to write more of what I want to write, about my dreams, my hopes, inspirations, and not feel like I have to make room for that. I want to take more time for myself by getting good sleep, bettering my mind and body, eating well, painting, taking up new hobbies, laughing till my tummy aches, being less serious and defensive, watching movies, and not feeling like I "have to do it all."
Last year was beautiful, but it ended already. And although it was filled with many change, there was still beauty in that growth. My guy always says, that to truly leave the past in the past, you have to stop talking about it. Now, more than ever, I find that to be even truer.
A little less talk and a lot more action.
I am so humbly grateful for all that I have. I seriously feel like the luckiest girl every single morning I wake up. And I'm so thankful and grateful to the ones I love, my warriors, the ones who get me, fully, and love me anyway.
To just living and nothing more than that.
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