Soul Loving

When the wind blows in Las Vegas, it's either too much wind or just the right amount.  Today is the latter and I couldn't feel more happier and at peace.

Ever since November, my life has been in constant motion, going from one thing to the next.  And though I've enjoyed every bit of it, sometimes it leaves you feeling a little burnt out.  From family to traveling over seas, and places to go and work to be done, I needed a little break from it all.

Last week was the tipping point, when a guest at the hotel I work at made me cry in front of another guest.  After a week of dealing with pissed off guests and guests who were flat out miserable, it was the last straw for this sensitive gal.

It dawned on me in that moment, with tears filling my eyes, that I truly don't understand why people (more than ever) are so cruel.  As I write the chapters to my book and hope for it to not only be successful but published, first and foremost, I delve back into parts of my past that were awful in the moment and helpful in the long run.

All the while, I still focus on the life I'm living, the dreams I hope to achieve, and the goals I so want to accomplish.  Writing has always been my greatest source of relaxation and it is something that allows and presents me with the opportunity to express my feelings without feeling judged.

Writing this book for young girls is changing my life already.  As I incorporate stories from my younger self, I feel so happy and blessed to be exactly where I am in life even when I have days of woe is me.  No matter how hard we may try, life will never be perfect and we will never have perfect relationships with the ones we love as well.  The most important thing I'm learning from writing this book, is that I've made it out of the dark place I was once in for so long.

Sometimes, it takes a whole lot of ugliness from others to make you realize over and over again just how wonderful life is.  I know for me at least, I tend to let others' actions or words affect me more than I should.  Yet whenever those people who exude cruelty show up, my gratitude for the life I have is not only nourished more, but growing by the second.

I will never understand cruelty, hatred, ignorance, prejudice, torture, infidelity, and why people kill others.  I guess it's not in my makeup to understand entirely.  All I do know for sure is that no matter how much of this still exists (and might always) in this world, there is always hope and love.

And when I lay my head down to sleep at night, even if my mind is going a million hours per second, I feel safe.  I feel content and peace.  And above all, I feel like where I am and who I'm with and get to share my life with, are all completely ENOUGH.

With a little dose of soul loving attention, I am back to feeling me again.  It's so easy to lose yourself amongst the crazy currents of life.  But when you find your way out of the rapids, your soul is rejuvenated once more and I feel that is just how life should be.

We can't always be on top of our game, nor can we always be in a great mood 24/7.  There are days when I feel a little down and crummy.  But for the most part it doesn't last too long and I always find my way back to myself.

Life is the greatest test we are given, at least for me it is.  And all I want to do nowadays is live it and love it.  I want to spend time with the man I love, watching one of our favorite shows or movies as our pup lays in between us.  I want to spend time with my family more often, relishing in their laughter and the beauty that connects us so tightly.  I want to visit California more and spend time with my other family, relax in their spa, hear their stories, and be consumed by their unconditional love.  And I want to always make time for me, doing whatever it is I love to do.

It's said often enough but I never know if people truly understand, that life really is all too short.  To feel down and blue sometimes is okay.  To feel down and blue all the time is not.  To be stressed out and impatient every once and a while is normal, but not all day everyday.  I don't ever want to look back on my life and see that I was too busy wasting my life away by worrying, stressing, fearing, or over thinking it all.  I want and I will, look back on my life someday, hopefully with the same people in my life now, and feel proud of all I accomplished and all they did as well.

I have several dreams for my one precious life.  However of all the dreams I have, the only one that really matters is living life in the present moments, that all too often pass us by.

Today I feel more me than I did last Sunday or even Monday.  Today I feel that no matter how hard life can seem or feel, there is always a way to come out of it alive, well, standing, and striving for more.  That is my goal.  That is what I will achieve.  And that is all I live for; life.  It is my purpose, I know this to be true.

I'm overcome with feelings of gratitude and love today.  I love the people in my life immensely and even if they don't know it, I find more beauty in them each day.  And I find more beauty within as well.

Don't settle for a life you don't want.  If you have dreams, make them come true no matter how long it may take.  If you want a long lasting relationship, you need to work hard at it, not because you're obligated to do so, but because you want to do so.  If you want to make amends with someone who did you wrong, make amends.  Why wait?  And if somedays just suck and all you want to do is have a glass of wine and soak in a bubble bath, do it!

Loving yourself and being good to your soul will only get you far in life.  It will make all that you already have even greater and it will bring peace to your mind.

With a little soul loving this week, I'm rejuvenated and at peace.  I know that there will always be people out there who will be cruel.  I know that I can't be as impatient as I am sometimes.  And I know that no matter what, my life is so damn amazing!

Things I'm loving today:

The wind blowing the Summerlin flags so effortlessly

Green

Red/Orange

Our little bush 

Our Pup

Watching over us

He loves to take pictures

This quote, right here!

And this one!

Homemade bread, courtesy of my guy (the best bread ever)! 

Editing my book..making my dreams possible.

These two!

My brother visiting in 3 weeks!!

Having them both visiting us soon!!

Today, I choose to live life boldly and abundantly!!! Today I choose to forgive negativity and cruelty and just be peacefully content with MY LIFE!!! It is the only thing that matters. :)