An Ode to 2012
All my life I have tried immensely with all my might, to not live so much in the past. And then one day I woke up, with complete realization that the past has obviously been over for quite some time and that I was quite content with that.
I breathed in a sigh of relief really, soaking up the life that has been gloriously mine since the very beginning. Sometimes, it takes a very long time for one to figure things out, to let go of the past, and to start living more in the present, fearlessly and contently with what they have.
That's what happened to me and though there were times I felt like giving up and overcome with millions of questions and never-ending thoughts, I chose to really live, regardless of the unknown.
With the people by my side, who have remained there for so long, I feel completely grateful, more so than ever, for the ones who love me and who I love with a force that no words could ever describe.
So without looking back too much, I pay an ode to the past year and all the things I've learned from it.
2012 taught me the following important lessons:
It's okay to not have control over many, if not most situations. I can't control how people feel about me, what they think of my life, who I love, who my family is, and the friends I choose to surround myself with. Or the way I look. I was wonderfully made the way I am and I actually love that so much more.
Sometimes, it's okay to feel sad or not on top of your game. Everyone has emotions and sometimes showing them is important. However, being over emotional and sensitive about everything is not always the road to take. Reminding myself of this fact, that I don't have to put so much meaning into absolutely everything, is actually much more relaxing and me.
Space and time for yourself and your loved one, is highly important. It doesn't mean you don't care about each other or that you don't want to be around the ones you love. Truthfully, it just means that taking the time to be alone and at one with yourself, is not only healthy, but soul inspiring. It reawakens the soul and actually boosts your level of tolerance and peace. For me at least.
Not knowing everything is the only way to live, for me to be who I am, and soak up the beauty that surrounds me. I used to think that I needed to have control over everything. From what I did day to day, how the future would work out, and how I would handle worst-case scenarios should they ever emerge. One thing I've learned from all of this, is that most of the things I've worried about and sweated over, have never happened and most likely never will. What a wonderful blessing all that stressing provided for me and my soul.
Love is the most beautiful thing one could ever receive and give. I have found the one whom my soul loves. Yes, at times, relationships can become harder than you'd like. It's just the way life rolls out. And the best way of knowing that what you have is the greatest thing on earth, is to recognize the twists and turns and bumps along the way, that only you two can get through together. For this, I am immensely blessed! It's best not to strangle this kind of love, to let it live freely in your heart, and to let them live freely as well. It's a lesson I hold deeply in my heart.
As I get older, I've found out that having and needing to have tons of friends is not quite important. When the right friends come along, you just know. There are several that I've met along the way that never stayed, yet it's those I am most grateful for, because they are the ones who've shown me what true friends are like when I met them. The friends I have now, I don't always hang out with or talk to for that matter. But they never judge me, stab me in the back, and actually accept me for who I am. They are also the ones who understand that sometimes, I just like to stay at home and relax. Some old, some new, the friends in my life live in my heart as well and I adore each of them.
And lastly, 2012 taught me how to live in the moment, how to appreciate the present time, and it made me realize just how strong I truly am. Focusing on the future too much or turning back to the past, stops you in your tracks of living a present and purposeful life. In this moment, typing and expressing who I am, I feel more whole with myself than ever. I've found my wholeness within me and I have to say, that that is one of the greatest feelings ever.
To 2012, thank you for making me grow up a lot more. For helping me to let go of things I cannot control and for teaching me how to live more freely and presently.
I believe 2013 is going to be the best year yet. And I am at peace with that.
I breathed in a sigh of relief really, soaking up the life that has been gloriously mine since the very beginning. Sometimes, it takes a very long time for one to figure things out, to let go of the past, and to start living more in the present, fearlessly and contently with what they have.
That's what happened to me and though there were times I felt like giving up and overcome with millions of questions and never-ending thoughts, I chose to really live, regardless of the unknown.
With the people by my side, who have remained there for so long, I feel completely grateful, more so than ever, for the ones who love me and who I love with a force that no words could ever describe.
So without looking back too much, I pay an ode to the past year and all the things I've learned from it.
2012 taught me the following important lessons:
It's okay to not have control over many, if not most situations. I can't control how people feel about me, what they think of my life, who I love, who my family is, and the friends I choose to surround myself with. Or the way I look. I was wonderfully made the way I am and I actually love that so much more.
Sometimes, it's okay to feel sad or not on top of your game. Everyone has emotions and sometimes showing them is important. However, being over emotional and sensitive about everything is not always the road to take. Reminding myself of this fact, that I don't have to put so much meaning into absolutely everything, is actually much more relaxing and me.
Space and time for yourself and your loved one, is highly important. It doesn't mean you don't care about each other or that you don't want to be around the ones you love. Truthfully, it just means that taking the time to be alone and at one with yourself, is not only healthy, but soul inspiring. It reawakens the soul and actually boosts your level of tolerance and peace. For me at least.
Not knowing everything is the only way to live, for me to be who I am, and soak up the beauty that surrounds me. I used to think that I needed to have control over everything. From what I did day to day, how the future would work out, and how I would handle worst-case scenarios should they ever emerge. One thing I've learned from all of this, is that most of the things I've worried about and sweated over, have never happened and most likely never will. What a wonderful blessing all that stressing provided for me and my soul.
Love is the most beautiful thing one could ever receive and give. I have found the one whom my soul loves. Yes, at times, relationships can become harder than you'd like. It's just the way life rolls out. And the best way of knowing that what you have is the greatest thing on earth, is to recognize the twists and turns and bumps along the way, that only you two can get through together. For this, I am immensely blessed! It's best not to strangle this kind of love, to let it live freely in your heart, and to let them live freely as well. It's a lesson I hold deeply in my heart.
As I get older, I've found out that having and needing to have tons of friends is not quite important. When the right friends come along, you just know. There are several that I've met along the way that never stayed, yet it's those I am most grateful for, because they are the ones who've shown me what true friends are like when I met them. The friends I have now, I don't always hang out with or talk to for that matter. But they never judge me, stab me in the back, and actually accept me for who I am. They are also the ones who understand that sometimes, I just like to stay at home and relax. Some old, some new, the friends in my life live in my heart as well and I adore each of them.
And lastly, 2012 taught me how to live in the moment, how to appreciate the present time, and it made me realize just how strong I truly am. Focusing on the future too much or turning back to the past, stops you in your tracks of living a present and purposeful life. In this moment, typing and expressing who I am, I feel more whole with myself than ever. I've found my wholeness within me and I have to say, that that is one of the greatest feelings ever.
To 2012, thank you for making me grow up a lot more. For helping me to let go of things I cannot control and for teaching me how to live more freely and presently.
I believe 2013 is going to be the best year yet. And I am at peace with that.
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